Opening Up

By on Jan 13, 2018 in Mind, Soul |

I need to be honest. I’ve been trying to write a post for the past 48 hours. I just can’t seem to get out the right words.   I’ve tried to write about a few different things. Why I’m starting the blog, a little blurb on depression and how it’s not just sadness, other hard topics to write about, but I just can’t seem to get out my thoughts on paper.   I’m not one to really talk about my feelings. I hate talking. Especially about myself. I don’t like telling my story or letting people in. I’ve just been hurt so many times or have had my words used against me so that it’s hard to open up.   One thing I am good at, though, is writing. I’ve seemed to always have a knack for it. My mom used to read my made-up stories or essays for school and would say to me, “I did not teach you how to write like...

Why it’s okay to be “Selfish”

By on Jan 7, 2018 in Body, Mind, Soul |

You know, 2018 hasn’t started off great for me. I’ve come to find out that a close family member is getting a divorce after a short marriage, I’ve been sick since November of 2017, bills are starting to stack up, and it seems like I’ve yelled, “It just CAN’T get ANY WORSE!” a million times, but then it does. Like my grandmother having to stay in the hospital for 3 days and having this really random medical problem come up that wasn’t even on our radar for her because she’s freaking healthy for having breast cancer twice.   I CAN’T TAKE IT!!   Okay, let’s take a deep breath, here. I know it could definitely get worse. I know people have it worse. And I certainly know that I am very well off for being a low-income, wife-of-a-college-man young adult. But it’s times like this where I push and push and PUSH myself to the breaking point every single time. Every time, without fail,...